Trackspin: Robbie Williams - You Know Me.

Thanks for this very nice song Tric. (:

Just an update post here.

I'm trying to get the hang of Tumblr, thinking of shifting my thoughts over there instead.
Here's the new site.

Also, here's the confusing part, I created another tumblr page to serve as my "portfolio"-of-sorts.
Motionless In Time.

I might stay on with blogger though, leaving the Tumblr sites for my portfolio and more random/deep thoughts or when I find nice things to put up or repost. After all, Blogger has served me so well through the years.

Alright, time for me to head off for work, it's about time.

Somebody like you can really make things all right for me.
- Requiem for a Dream.

Trackspin: Meaghan Smith - Here Comes Your Man.

Really cute song from (500)Days Of Summer. (:

Welcome home Carol! You've been missed much by us Udders! Dinner sometime this week or next if possible!

Okay, so people remarked that my braces are the colour of Ikea. Nice. Reminds me, meatballs & daim cake! :D I WANT!

It's not too great a day, considering it's 3.27pm and I haven't started practising for the jamming later. It's just that I don't feel the urge to do so. Sigh. I need more motivation, and not from people like these, otherwise bass-playing is going straight down the drain for me.

The past couple of days have been really great, spending time with friends that matter, Cedric, Val, Tricia, Matty, and Carol joined us for lunch yesterday after basketball. And the best friend is missing in action. BUSY WITH SCHOOL AND CLUBBING RIGHT, MR DARREN GOH! Hahaha. You better make time for the Udders or Carol just might rip your head off since she's back, hahaha. (:

Still feeling a lack of motivation to shoot more pictures but I figure something good happened on Friday while we sent Eugene off. Found a nice reflection to take a picture of Cedric from Val's Macbook. Guess it's just the way light fell from the skylight and how we were seated. Like the shot though.

Alright, time for me to stop being lazy and go put in some practise.

"Love is being stupid together." Wonder how true this line is. I think it's more accurate to be "Love is being able to be stupid together." (:

Trackspin: Train – Hey Soul Sister.

Changed my module colours today, as well as tightened the wire. Now it's starting to hurt and annoy me again. The things I have to put up with. At least I'm happy with how the colours turned out. HAHA. (:

Took a short afternoon nap, then decided against round2. Spent the time looking through my E61 and read through my messages. I realised that I've kept messages from both birthdays spent in NS, and other important messages too. Reading through my inbox has left me a little nostalgic and I wish to thank all of you for having been there for me through the ups and downs as friends. (: And to especially important people like the Udders and Tric, thanks a million for keeping me sane in my crazy world at times. Love you all too much too begin to comprehend how life would be without you all.

Christmas is quickly coming to an end. It's passed so quickly this year, just coming and going, taking along with it any hope that I'd feel any form of joy at the festivities. It's just so weird because I never thought that Christmas and the new year could have just slipped right by me like this. However, I guess somehow, I got lost in translation and missed everything that happened lately. Too much of having my head up in the clouds maybe, but perhaps more truthfully is the fact that I've been so caught up with work during December. I never did have much time to myself in December, not being able to organise basketball, nor keep to the idea of getting on the Singapore Flyer, which has been long overdue for me. While it has been fun borrowing Mike's 5D and lenses, it has left me a little jaded with my own equipment. But I just gotta make do for now. Everything in it's time.

I'm feeling quite at a loss lately. I don't feel the urge to snap a lot, not after the disastrous 2nd photographer wedding shots I came up with. I don't know, maybe it's just that my self-confidence has taken a severe hit. Same thing has happened with singing. Maybe it's because there is a severe lack of bassists around but I figured I miss singing so much that I wouldn't mind not playing bass just to get to sing a song or two. I've just realised that because of things like these, I haven't taken my camera out on certain occasions that I should have the past week. Also, I haven't touched my bass for the longest time, since Confirmation Camp. I'm actually contemplating asking the kids to just cancel the jam session and do my own one with people I'd rather be playing with. I'm sorry but it's just that I don't feel motivated to play at all, due to a multitude of reasons. One of them being that I feel like I'm not an adequate-enough bassist. Maybe I need time to get myself out of this rut. Cedric wants to play for the January session so that's going to him already, I'm just going to hang around and see what needs help with. Nothing new there I guess.

Today has been bugging me with an issue. I figure that maybe you're angry at me for spilling out some stuff despite me being the one who said what's done is done and kept to that night, but I think the point is that we all care enough that amongst the group of us, I'd like to keep things open and not hide behind any facade. I don't know, maybe I can't deal with the fact that two people I trust my life with are dealing with issues like that and yet, I can't do anything to help make things better, even though I know I'm not in any position to do so in the first place. I guess I'll just sit this out and keep myself occupied with other things. You never know how much someone cares until you sacrifice that person's concern. I guess we never know what we have until we give it away.

I've been told the past day or two that I'm full of nonsense. I suppose that I am, and sometimes, hide behind this facade, trying to tell myself to take a look at the lighter side of things, in spite of problems and all. I truly hope that I don't seem like a fool to people who see me as trying to run away from my problems. I guess there's always more to life and we can take things light-heartedly to ease the pain and sufferings we bear daily. Sure, there are times to be serious and responsible, but the rest of the time, I hope I can choose to be more optimistic and look past my personal troubles. Hope that things work better that way, haha.

I really have this urge to play basketball on weekdays now too, simply because I can, and I haven't managed to get in much playtime in December. Making up for lost time?

Okay, enough of this random babbling, it's 9pm and I've yet to eat my dinner due to this post. Time to head down and think of what to eat. And honestly, thanks for those times you make me degenerate into a little kid. You know what I mean, haha. (:

Trackspin: Uncle Kracker - Smile.

This song has actually been stuck in my head for a little bit, since something funny occurred days ago, haha. Cute song.

It's been such a tiring past few days, staying up late, not sleeping, lacking meals. It really showed yesterday when I had another hit of gastric while working. I should really stop this unhealthy habit of inconsistent meals. And maybe granola bars or chocolate bars will help with work, instead of starving myself until after work ends. Hmm, got pretty bad yesterday coz my vision swam when I stood up after sitting down for a minute or two. Figured it's the lack of sleep, lack of food and the usual LBP at play again. Falling sick too I think, considering I feel a bit of a cold coming about, whatwith sweating in a cold environment and all.

Ate donuts from JCo and yes, they have the little pieces like munchkins from Dunkin' Donuts. Great stuff, though each box has 24 pieces. Bought 2 boxes home for myself, WAHAHAHAH! Loving it!

I think I'm relegated to keeping myself sober and awake from now on. I cannot begin to fathom being wasted the past couple of nights as well. Maybe it's the fact that I feel some sense of responsibility with being the older one around, but still.. Hmm, I honestly wish things didn't turn out how they did but what's done is done, let's move on from it, dealing with the repercussions when they arise. At the same time, I guess it was a good learning lesson, for each of us.

Alright, gonna head out to meet for lunch and look around for a new ipod. My mini died on me! So apparently I'm stuck with using my Blackberry for my audio needs. Time to look for something with at least 16GB, because I didn't have to keep re-syncing my ipod touch the last time around, with 16GB of songs and videos in it. Maybe a 32GB would be nice. HAHA.

OH, YOU MAKE ME SMILE! (:

Trackspin: Sara Bareilles - One Sweet Love.

The weekend has disappeared once more! Working at Daniel and Mindy's wedding has been really tiring and taught me that I've a long long way to go before my photos are of any standard. And that I have to start working out again already. Anybody for regular workouts, be it gym or running?

Yesterday was one of the best days I've had in a while. Woke up early for breakfast then stayed home to laze about in the rain while I got my photo selections done, then went out in the evening for dinner with Matty, Cedric and Addison, followed by LAN with them. Managed to finish maps 3, 4 and 5 for L4D2, but wound up with a splitting headache from Swamp Fever due to the graphics. We need to find places with better coms, there was still lag from the DEagle shot I feel. Had a short drink/supper/chat with Ced and Val at KimSanLeng before taking Circle Line back. Realised that the Circle Line goes past midnight, which means I can stay out at Bishan till about 1215am nowadays and still get home without cabbing. Sweeet.

Okay, time to go wash up and head over to Darren's to borrow the 50mm F1.4 and then down to Mike's place to deliver the photos, then out back to AMK to meet the twin and Nat to get Nat's DSLR. Wonder what she's getting. Hmmm..

Hope you people are enjoying your lives and making the best of each day, because I know I'm not making the best out of my days, HAHA.

Trackspin: Journey - Don't Stop Believin'.

Been stuck on listening to Journey since I bought their CD. HAHA. Thanks for the Glee version of the song which rocked too!

Hmm, it's a slow day, though I need to head out to buy my shoes as well as get some presents. Hopefully I can get everything done in record time, HAHA.

Work this week has been really tiring, making me unable to remember what day of the week it is, due to the long working hours. However, yesterday was really the greatest. Ade and Dom are the cutest couple I've met thus far in my line of work and they're so different and yet, I suppose that's what makes them really interesting. She's so cheerful, carefree and outspoken, even with people she's recently met, whereas he's so quiet and reserved, only opening up a little bit more when in the company of his closest buddies. I really enjoyed covering their ROM last Saturday and their wedding yesterday. Honestly wish them all the best and I hope I'll meet them again someday.

Curiously, a whole lot of music played by couples on their wedding days remind me of you, making me miss you more. (:

Managed to find quite a bit of time to spend with people like Val and Cedric, even if it's just a simple lunch all the way at AH. Really enjoy the company and talks. Eugene's back from London too, managed to get in a round of L4D2 with Ced, BigBen and Eug on Monday. Great stuff. Now I really want to pull an all-nighter out playing. Addicted to gaming once more? Maybe. I really want to give ModernWarfare2 a go too. Pity I haven't installed Windows on my Mac, nor do I have a desktop at home. Time to build one up from scratch maybe? Hmm..

Using Mike's equipment has left me wanting so much more out of my camera. But sadly, it's unable to produce. I guess I should just make full use of it until I'm able to finance the 5DmII or something. Also, Mike's getting me addicted to primes. Absolutely love the 85 F1.2, 35 F1.4 and the 100 F2.8. The 16-35 F2.8 is a bonus, along with the 70-200 F2.8 IS. Sigh. But I guess it's good to just get used to moving about to get the shots you want. I feel I've learnt a lot from Mike lately, with him teaching me and stuff. Hopefully I don't disappoint him as second photographer on the 26th and 27th. Hmm, still find my shots rather lackluster though. Pffft.

Okay, time for me to head out of the house soon, gotta go get my shoes and check for my pay! Then its off to get more shopping done!

Christmas seems to always be the season of love. Love Actually anyone? Or is it all just a fairytale?

Trackspin: Marie Digby - Spell.

Been a long weekend of work for me, which seemed to pass so quickly somehow because I didn't get to meet up with the usual people who matter to me. On the brighter side, work went well, started taking shots as well during the weddings, under the guidance of Mike. It's just been a great weekend at work though I sorely and dearly miss my friends and this month isn't going to be easy because I'm packed up with work every weekend of December.

Weirdly, here's the slight bit of ranting now. I'm very sure that you do not want me to be a part of your life at all, not even as a friend. Guess I should stop trying to be nice and be friends when you've let things degrade beyond a point where we aren't even acquaintances anymore. Just as well I guess, considering all that's been said and done. Here's goodbye to you, and I wish you well.

Back to the post! I need more sleep, been getting very little lately, due to extremely late nights, resulting in major headaches and bad dreams. So much in my head that needs to be put into a little box and thrown into the ocean. I guess work helps take some stress away, seeing everyone around being happy and smiley.

Nana's back, so I suppose we all need to start on that food hunt some time soon.

Interestingly, I saw Wei Liang yesterday on the bus home during my break. Was a really short catch-up considering he stayed on the bus for only 2 stops. But the catching up was good, to me at least. He's really matured now, compared to before. Guess everybody does at some point in life and I hope he's happy with his life the way it is now and that we'll meet up again some day soon, with Bryandt and the others too.

Christmas is coming but I'm honestly not too in the mood for it? I guess it's just that I'm flooded with work and haven't exactly been thinking of the festive season. Next up after Christmas is Matthew's wedding. Wondering if I should rent the equipment to shoot it for him myself. I guess I could, for sure. But yeah, I'll consider it first I guess. Mike made a whole lot of sense.

Back to Christmas! Caroling has been rather bad, in my humblest opinion. I'm just really upset at the whole deal right now and I'm not going back down for the practices or for the actual thing if possible, if only for the company of friends who have asked me to go. It's just absurd when you try to help people and they just ignore all that's been said, no? How about helping them with every aspect that you think can be helped with and improved on for something but blatantly being ignored in your face about it? I guess sometimes, patience is a virtue. But times like these, enough is enough.

Basketball this Wednesday, hopefully all goes well. Last thing I need to do is get injured, seeing that this month is so busy. Alright, time for me to head out of the house after getting my stuff ready.

"Have patience with all things, but most importantly, with yourself."